Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Meditation:

Pedaling for me is like a pitchfork
turning shit into fuel. I'm working on
learning how to not bog myself
down with expectations, and rather turn my
experiences into fertilizer.

Being too
cerebral doesn't allow for me to
look around, feel the sensations
and check in with how it is
for me to be on the bicycle. Riding too
much into my head is an unbalanced
communication with myself.

We all know what it's like to be in the
flow: thoughts motivate movement. They
work with the body, and vice versa in a
symbiotic communication.

It's easy to get caught up in
the should be's: I should be
riding more hills, faster, harder, and
pushing ones self is good, it's healthy
if the heart is really in it. It's when we
mistake pushing ourselves with forcing
ourselves to do something.
The latter is a dangerous, ugly
place to be.

I want to check in with my body
often, and make sure my mind is in
a healthy place before I decide to
participate in any adventure, race, or
endeavor. Equipped with my own support
and confidence to get me through the
undertaking, I hope to let expectations
dissipate and be open to new
possibilities.